I overslept so I didn’t go to church this morning.
If God wanted me at church then God woulda woke me up.
its almost like a catch 22 dealing with guys because some are so bent on the idea that a relationship won’t work that they basically fucking sabotage everything
and when I, as a woman internalize that and basically become very distant and nonchalant with these men and their feelings, it proves exactly what they’re scared over
and we just go round and round and round.
Who do you love? When was the last time you told them? No better time than the present. Write them a letter… with pen and paper. Bring them a cupcake at their job. Call them. Don’t text or send a message or Facebook. Call. Be gross and sappy. Sing them a song on their answering…
do you ever get so disgusted with yourself, like you can not believe how stupid and thoughtless you are and it’s so frustrating because you keep telling yourself that you’ll do better next time but then next time rolls around and the same thing keeps happening and you end up in this pattern of mediocrity.